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Beloved,

Have you ever felt fear from something you thought you would love?
I was in for quite a surprise this week. Ever since I have moved
here, I have wanted a door to go onto my deck that was all glass so
I would have an ever better view of the lake. I have a bow window in
my living room that overlooks the lake but a large portion of my
living room was wall and a solid exterior door which meant I had to
stand in front of the window to see the lake. I wanted to be able
to see the lake as I passed by into the kitchen from my office, my
spare room, my master bedroom and even the bathroom. The temperature
up here on the mountain is usually 5 degrees colder than down below.
This means I don’t get to open my exterior door for long once the
screens are in place so for most of the year, I don’t have full
view access through the door. That corner of my living room and my
view to the lake is closed.

Well, finally I ordered two exterior doors which were badly needed.
The storm doors for both doors are full glass doors so I can see
easily in the warm weather when I open the doors. One is new and
has a screen that shows up when I pull down the top part of the window.
I love these new inventions as I don’t have to remove the glass and
insert the screen twice a year. My new kitchen door is half window
and half door and it has a blind right inside the window which is so
easy to either pull up so the window is clear or I can also adjust
the blind to open or close. Both sills or thresholds had rotten wood
which I did not know about but was taken care of at the time of the
new installation.

I was so excited to finally be able to see the lake as I was passing
by the doorway to the living room. I always look as I am passing by
as I watch the birds and I can a little corner of the lake this way.
What surprised me was how I reacted each time I passed by now.
My heart would race as I automatically thought the door was open and
I felt fear. Fear that my door was open and I was not safe or
protected from anything outside. I WAS SHOCKED AT MY REACTION.

I went out one day to do yoga and do shopping and when I opened
my back door, the first thing I saw was the door to the deck
which looked open and I had a fight or flight reaction. My first
thought was that I had forgotten to close and lock the door and was
there anyone inside of my house now? My heart was pounding and I
felt real fear.

I never expected to be reacting like this and I was getting a real
opportunity to look at why I was reacting this way to my home.
I know humans do not like change but THIS is one that I had been
looking forward to for so long. In my rational mind it did not
make sense but nonetheless I was feeling fear and being unsafe.

I know I like to be in control and as doors are openings into our
inner sanctuary, I felt my safety was being threatened. Doors can
also be portals into our subconscious which is evidently where this
was coming from. I remember being told so often growing up to be
reasonable and not to react irrationally to things or events. I was
extremely “sensitive” to surroundings and other people’s feelings but
I did not realize at that time that I was an empath…a person who
feels what others are feeling. I was not aware of it for a very
long time. I know now that much of what I feel is not mine, it
belongs to the world outside of me. Was that what I was afraid of
now?…. The world outside of me that I was able to keep out with
closed doors and locks.

Being vulnerable is essential to being open to Spirit. Vulnerability
does not mean you are unsafe or unprotected, it simply means that
you are trusting in God and knowing that you are protected and
safe in this world. The opposite of fear is love and I know that
I AM loved beyond measure. The outside world gives us many
opportunities to strengthen our muscle of belief in love as it gives
us many scenarios of fear. Even my new doors were just a scenario of
fear which was only in my human mind and its ingrained habit of
perception. I was being given another chance to erase some fear that
had been buried deep within my soul. I was ready to conquer that
fear that was totally out of context. I also know that fear can
be conquered one step at a time.

Soooo….for now, I am keeping the blinds open in that door instead
of pulling them up and having them look like the door is open. I still
have butterflies in my stomach but they are coming less often and
eventually I will be able to open that full length of glass with
no reaction except joy that I can now see more of the lake and
see it more often as I am passing by.

As a side note, the day the doors were installed two white swans
came for a visit to my lake. That was so thrilling as in 16 years
I have only seen a swan once so they are rare. And…as the
contractor was replacing the sills, each threshold had a penny in it.
He said that many people do this but I have never heard of this
tradition. If you know why this was done, would you drop me an email
and let me know? I love pennies as I believe they are gifts from
angels, they even carry the words: “In God we trust”. Do you think
perchance that I was being given a message???? I do.

I want to share a pretty cool video with you today.

It talks about the 5 natural emotions that we all experience
as humans in our day-to-day life and interaction with others.

Many of us keep these emotions inside instead of embracing
and accepting them. In some cases, however, even our emotions
that seem “negative” can be used as motivation to transform your
life for the better.

You can watch the video here:
http://www.globalwellnessblog.com/2013/04/30/video-the-5-natural-emotions/

I know Mother’s Day was last week but I didn’t want to wait until
next year to send you this tribute to mothers all over the world.

http://www.goodnewsnetwork.org/family-life/son-surprises-mom-with-house-on-mothers-day.html

One more…I wanted you to know about this recording. I listen
to this in my car and feel such joy continuing in my life even
when I am not listening to it. The day after, I woke up with
joy and even laughed at myself in the mirror. I found myself
singing silly ditties during the day also. Just listen to some
of it and it is free to download if you choose.

http://www.eraofpeace.org/important-information/resources/musical-rapture-mp3/

Love and Light

Mary Grace
www.IAmMaryGrace.com
www.TheWoundedChalice.com
http://www.waleson5.com/marygrace.html

PO Box 403
Wales, MA 01081, USA
413-245-3977

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Beloved,

I am in the midst of another snowstorm which I would not mind but
somehow I “lost” the message I was writing to you. The energies are
having fun playing with me again. I think they are smiling as they
try to see if I still have my patience or am I losing it? Answer:
I am not sure. I will try again.

I received a call yesterday from a person named Daniel and I could
hardly make out what he was saying. His accent was very strong and
I kept telling him I did not know what he was saying. After repeated
tries, through spelling I found out he was with “1 Stop Earcade”
What that is I don’t know and I still don’t know positively but I
have my suspicions. He said my computer was downloading “malicious”
files and soon my computer would be so full that it will crash. I
was astounded and did not believe him as I still could not figure out
how he knew my computer was slowing down and how he even came by
my phone number. Come to think of it, He never mentioned my name
so I don’t know whether he knew it or not. He hit me in a very
deep place of fear, the computer and my lack of knowledge of how
it works. He called it an “awareness” call????? from this company
in NY. I asked what city but was only able to determine it is
Valleycotteve which I have never heard of but he spelled it for me
twice.

My solar plexus was doing push ups and I was feeling queezy. My
mind had to be focused on what he was trying to tell me so there was
not much left to do any rational thinking. Finally he told me to
go to my computer and put in some letters and he would be able to
diagnose the problem and fix it. My reasoning mind knew not to let
any person into my computer that I did not know or trust. It is even
scary for me to do that even with a technician that I CALLED.

He told me how to get into Run and put prefetch in that section. I
knew I was safe as long as I was doing it so I did. There were many
files and he asked me if any of them were familiar. I had to admit
that I did not recognize any and he said these were all “malicious”
files. I still would let him into my computer so he told me to
go back to RUN and insert “msconfig” and then click on services which
showed many I did recognize but some were running and some were
stopped. He said already things were being shut down and
it would not be long before my computer crashed.

I finally drew a long breath and said I would not do anything until
I speak to my younger son Bruce who knows a lot about computers. We
had already been on the phone for 20 minutes as conversation was so
difficult. Daniel (a strange name for someone from India?) wanted to
call me back in five minutes but I said: “No, give me a half hour.”
He had given me the phone number of his company and I asked what
this was going to cost and he said:”Nothing for the diagnosis but
there is a charge if they need to fix it and he did not determine
that”. The phone number is 1-888-514-1650.

My heart was pounding so much and my brain was not entirely free to
make decisions. When someone backs me into a deep fear, my mind
goes blank and it takes time for me to be coherent. I called Bruce
and told him what had happened. He checked and the web said this
company was a telemarketer and there were many complaints against it.

Thank goodness I could call me son for some guidance. He was furious
and suggested I tell Daniel that he(my son)would like to have his computer
diagnosed and then my son could check him out and see if actually
was on the up and up and if not, he would take of the situation.
Bruce and I talked for about a half an hour when my phone rang. I
was kind of hoping he would not call back. I asked Daniel about
checking out my son’s computer but he said he could only call the
phone numbers that he was told to call. I told him he was a
telemarketer and I wanted nothing to do with him. He denied it and
kept insisting that my computer was in danger but I finally told him
to delete me and my phone number from his list and if called me
again I would report it to the police and then I hung up.

My son later called the number I had been given and it was the
technical department: the R&D development, of this company and they
could tell him nothing. As I read what I wrote about this episode in
my life, I wonder why I ever even considered doing what I was asked
to do. It seems so obvious now but it was not when I was going
through it. Has this ever happened to you? These scammers seem to
know exactly what they need to say to convince you. Thank you
Angels for taking care of me when I was unable to.

I would like to believe that I would never have allowed him into my
computer even if my son had not been home. It was quite an
experience and now I have a deeper knowing of how people get conned
or scammed. Before this experience I was (cocky?) sure that I
could not be scammed but now I am not so sure. Fear is probably the
wrong word to use for what I felt. It is my lack of knowledge and
my knowing THAT I am not comfortable with all the computer does and
is capable of doing and so it leaves me at a disadvantage and I feel
powerless. I tend to believe people when they give me suggestions
about the computer because I feel that everyone knows more than me.

My brain seems to be programmed to take computer suggestions from
others and sometimes it leads me into websites that I don’t want.
Even google leads me on a merry chase as I seek information. I guess
I was more disappointed in myself for not seeing the scam coming.
Perhaps it is my ego that is a little deflated but I did not “feel”
any danger from this man except I know enough not to let anyone into
my computer any more than I would let a stranger into my bank account.

I am telling you this so you will be forewarned if this man or company
calls you. I also need to acknowledge that my halo slipped down and
I am not so all knowing in my own eyes. Another thing I am uncomfortable
with is my lack of sensing any danger, my 6th sense did not warn me
but now that I am thinking about it, my 3rd chakra was screaming
at me. Yet, even when my son is working on my computer, I am very
uncomfortable because computer based people do things with little
thought and then I have no way to understand what they did or how to
undo it. I am comfortable if I can delete something that I down
loaded but if I don’t know how to “undo”, I am uneasy.

I have gained a lot from this experience and hope you never have
to experience it. My wish for you is that you learn from what
happened to me. This was a first for me and I need some
laughter right about now. How about you?

An Oldie but Goodie

http://www.youtube.com/watch_popup?v=MnignqBw4CY

Another one to make you laugh out loud.

Subject: Where Babies Come From? Its Priceless….

Have the sound on high and listen to every word ….
it’s simply hilarious!!

http://pinterest.com/pin/176484879119087219/

Hey, it finally stopped snowing. Now I just need to wait for
the plow to do my street and then the young men who do my driveway
will be able to come and get me open again. Thank you for letting
me share my “scary” experience with you and I will take the storm
ending as a sign that ALL IS WELL!

Love and Light

Mary Grace

www.IAmMaryGrace.com
www.TheWoundedChalice.com
http://www.waleson5.com/marygrace.html

PO Box 403
Wales, MA 01081, USA
413-245-3977

HALLOWEEN/VOTING…ARE THEY THE SAME?

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Happy Halloween. There are so many ways to celebrate
Halloween and just as many meanings to this special day.
To some people, it is a symbol and celebration of their
religious beliefs and to others, it is an opportunity to
throw a party and celebrate with costumes.

Have you ever considered it as an opportunity to become
someone else if even for a few short hours? An opportunity
to try your acting skills in portraying some fantasy you may
have? Who hasn’t dreamed of being something other than
themselves? Is that walking in someone else’s shoes? Not
quite but it might give you a little taste.

It is a day that magnifies some people’s fears of the unseen
like ghosts and goblins and black magic. It is a day that
children look forward to so they can get lots and lots of
sweets and treats. Many adults look forward to seeing the
children in their costumes and making them smile as they put
something in their baskets.

If the day gets too “ghostly” for you then just think of the
glee that the little ones feel. Fear comes in many sizes and
packages. Fear is only real if you give it substance and faith
is the antidote. Neither are able to be seen by the physical
eyes so how can you know that either is real? By their results!

It is like the wind which is something that you can feel, you
know it is there but you can’t see it . You only know it is
there because you see the effects. The rustling of the leaves,
the blowing of the clothes on the line, the mussing of someone’s hair.
.
Which one makes you feel good about yourself and life?
Do not let fear spoil any day of the year for you, life is too short.

I am participating in a Halloween Festival at Alternatives for
Health Herbal Apothecary at 426 Main Street, Sturbridge, Ma
this weekend. There will be several of us sharing our gifts including
Joy Levine – Numerology, Deb Galanos – Readings, Diane Lewis –
spiritual Healer & Medium and myself – bearing the Divine Mother
Energy, come prepare to be touched by the Mother. I will be there
on Saturday from 10:30 AM to 4:00 PM and on Sunday from
12:00 PM to 5:00PM.

Join us for a fun filled Halloween Weekend! There will be readers
on site both days and there will be refreshments, drawings and more.
Come in, say Hi and see the new product lines.

Once the partying is over, we then get down to brass tacks.
Voting is up next for the majority of Americans. It affects many
people the same way as Halloween. Are we going to let fear
control our country or will we have faith that a Higher Power can
be in charge if we allow it?

There has been so much slander and lies spread in this campaign,
that it is tempting to just stay home and not vote. And…..that is what
fear wants you to do. Will you give up your God given right to vote
for your choice based on your own heart? Many of our ancestors
gave up their lives just so you could be free to go to the polls and
choose. How long will it take you? Longer than those who are fighting
for our freedom to do so?

Go into your heart and let your heart speak to your mind so you will
choose the candidates that will lead this country in the way you wish
it to be. America stands for something, let us stand up for that.
Remember that we have all come from immigrants and our forefathers
and foremothers gave up much to come to this country so you could be
free to go and pick your choice. Money and power cannot buy the
most precious thing we have and that is love for one another. It is
priceless so use it wisely. I, for one, will go into the quiet and pray
that I choose wisely so that my great grandchildren will always be
protected from all harm and have the freedom that I have enjoyed
all my life. It takes only a minute to still the wordly voices and listen
to the one that speaks to your heart.

I received this email this morning and it gives you something
you can do if you are confused and not knowing which way
to turn. I have never heard of this organization but it rang
true to my heart so if you want to do something and do not
know what, this might be a solution for you.

With all the turbulence in the air as we approach the mid-term
elections, we are feeling called to convene a space for those
yearning to connect with a deeper wisdom and truth in relation
to our collective situation. Please join us on election morning
for a deep listening call to “call forth the deepest wisdom and
the highest compassion from the heart and soul of America,
for the benefit of the entire Earth community and the next
seven generations.”

When? Tuesday November 2, 6-7AM PDT/9-10AM EDT/1-2PM GMT

To connect by Phone: 1-724-444-7444; ID 78671, 1#

To connect by Audio webcast: http://www.talkshoe.com/tc/ 78671

Blessings,

David and Leslie, for the Gaiafield Wisdom Council

Contact Information
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email: [email protected]
web: http://www.gaiafield.net
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Enjoy your Halloween in a way that brings you joy.

Let your voice be heard, go to the polls.

Love and Light

Mary Grace
www.TheWoundedChalice.com
www.TheWoundedChalice.com/blog
[email protected]