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ASTOUNDING PICTURES OF ICELAND’S VOLCANO – EYJAFJALLAJOKULL

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Beloveds,
What wonderful energy came together for the Whole
Health Expo held last weekend. I met so many
wonderful new people who are on their path and
wanting to put their piece of the puzzle into the
colorful and unique mozaic that is Mother Earth.

This was my second year as a speaker and exhibitor
but this time I was asked by Mother Mary, the Divine
Feminine, to bring a stronger presence of Her to the
people. She wanted to reach out and speak to her
children that needed support and love to continue
on their destiny with loving confidence in themselves.

Mother Mary wanted to touch them physically also
and to let them know they were being touched by
Her Love. Hugs are the best way to transmit this
energy and it is my favorite way of sharing Her love.

I must say that it was a stepping off the cliff for me
yet I was definitely supported. I have done sessions
before where Mother has come through for people
but it was always done one at a time and in my
home where it was quiet and serene. I was being
asked to step beyond my comfort zone and cross
the boundaries I had previously placed there.

I did not know if I could do it with all the noise and
activity of the crowd around me, I did have some
trepidation. Years ago, whenever I heard the “F” word,
it was like something scraping my soul, it literally was
so heavy that I felt like I was being covered in mud.

What You Resist Persists so as long as I was resisting the
“F” word, I would hear it repeatedly being said. By my
coworkers (mostly male) and even occasionally by my
sons who knew they could push Mom’s buttons that way.

I decided to choose my own “F” word so I could
replace the other one. I ended up with two F words
which are Fear and Faith. You cannot feel both at
the same time so when I feel Fear, I stop for a moment
and bring up the feeling of Faith .

Every time I would feel myself feeling some concern over
Mother’s request, I would think of the Love that she
wanted to give others through me. How could I say NO?
I had to step out in Faith.

I was so blessed by all who I met and hugged. It is quite a
paradox, what you give comes back to you multiplied.

Remember to step out in Faith towards whatever your
heart is pulling you to do. You will be supported with
LOVE.

I want to share some amazing photos with you about
the volcano eruptions in Iceland. It is mind boggling
to see what power and strength Mother Nature has
yet how we are protected and cared for through
the seeming disaster. These Icelanders show such
courage and concern for the creatures that are
under their care.

I realize that world trade and personal schedules were
severely disrupted. There are many perspectives to
see here and much gratitude and appreciation flowing
now that things are getting back to normal.

Let us send some healing Love Energy to the Icelanders who
are going through this challenging time and who are the
ones remaining to clean up the debris and disruptions
to their lives.

Enjoy these pictures, they are spectacular.

http://www.boston.com/ bigpicture/2010/04/more_from_ eyjafjallajokull.html

Love and Light,

Mary Grace

http://www.TheWoundedChalice.com
http://www.TheWoundedChalice.com/blog
[email protected]

FACING THE FEAR OF REJECTION

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It feels like a long time since I have been able to talk with you .
I am able to be out of my sling more and more so I am able
to type better and much easier. The occupational therapist,
Betty, who comes to my home has been fantastic. I still won’t
be able to drive for at least another two weeks. Another
XRay is needed to make sure it is healing right. Hopefully
I will be given the go ahead to drive.

This fractured shoulder episode has given me many opportunities
to face the demons(fears) that I had been able to bury. I am
cussedly independent and it takes all my courage to ask for
help.

I live alone so on a daily, hourly and sometimes minute by minute
basis, something else showed up that I cannot do. Yet so many things
need doing just to exist. For instance, I could not take a shower without
a hand held shower and also a bench in my tub for security. I could not
and would not agree to a sponge bath. I washed myself the best I could.

Oh the sorrows of being so modest and also so independent. What a
learning curve.

One of my sons tried to get me a hand held shower but in Walmart, they
were not with the shower things so he could not find one. Finally, my other
son found one in Home depot and he installed it for me. The Wales Senior
Center has benches that people can borrow and it was suggested I get
a tranfer bench which the director graciously brought to me only to discover
the back and the side were on the wrong side of the shower so it was not
usable for me.

The next day, she was going to bring me another regular bench and the shed
where these things are stored was frozen shut. The following day she brought
me one that would fit. Finally I had all in place and I was so looking forward to
the next day when my home health aide was to come.

A snow storm came up and she was unable to make it. This was on a
Thursday and she would not be back until Monday. Notice all the
stumbling blocks that were put in place to give me the opportunity
to practice PATIENCE and release all the things I thought I had to have.

By the time all was in place, it was three and a half weeks before
I was able to get a shower. It had been two weeks before I was
able to get my hair washed and that was sooner because it could
be done in the sink. I could not get my body into the sink for
a bath. :>)

I live in a very small town and on a private street. Because it is
a private street, my mail cannot be delivered and I have a Post
Office box which I cannot access without mobility.

Getting groceries was quite difficult as there are no delivery
services. Thank God for my family and friends and also
more opportunities to face my dreaded fear of asking for help.
I was even snowed in one Sunday as both my doors were blocked
with snow and would not open. I put in two frantic calls to the
young men who shovel and plow. There was no place I could
go as I was home bound but just the fact that I could not get
out really accentuated that fact. Boy, did I feel isolated, abandoned,
and so all alone.

I have had many blessings in this seemingly disaster. I discovered that
my fear of asking goes way back to childhood and the fear of
rejection. Although I am OK if someone cannot do what I ask,
the mere fact of asking is opening myself to rejection. I now realize
that if someone raised their voices or hollers, my instant reaction
is to run and hide. I do not stand my ground and argue, I simply
cannot…at least I couldn’t . I can stand up to anyone like a business
or someone who is not close to me. But friends and family can
reduce me to a quivering pile of tears.

I am now able to see at a much deeper level just how terrified
I am of maybe being rejected, at least my perception of being
rejected.

What a gift that is. I have always seen the glass as half full and
now am being given the chance to realize that I can survive with
a glass that is half empty. It is all in the perception. Until we face
our demons, they control us. I am so grateful that I was forced to
face up to my fears, see them and transmute them.

Here are some predictions for 2010 that I can embrace.

http://www.youtube.com/watch? v=Q3zJm98UXzQ

Love and Light

Mary Grace
http://www.TheWoundedChalice.com
http://www.TheWoundedChalice.com
[email protected]

3 Brows Beach Dr
PO Box 403
Wales, MA 01081, USA