Category Archives: Fears

THE JOYS OF SPRINGTIME

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Beloved,

 First, I would like to acknowledge my mood these past few weeks.  The present energy wave is having its way with me.  I am now saying: “I thought I had released this a long time ago, why did it come back to haunt me?”  Well, I conquered my fear of the microphone, of speaking in public and big crowds.  I guess it is now time for me to conquer my fear of confrontation.  I was confronted with a Kangaroo court atmosphere when I appeared all by myself with my letter and the signatures of the 33 people who signed it. When I am confronted by an angry person, my little girl runs and hides in the closet all curled up. I have been given the opportunity to face this squarely and not run into the closet.  There will be another meeting in two weeks and hopefully we will get the answers to our questions. It has not been fun but I am grateful for the opportunity to release all that constricts my energy of LOVE. My gratitude goes out to all the players in this scenario.  It is coming to an end so if you are experiencing events or challenges, know they finally do go away.

 Here is a perfect example of rules, whether you should follow them or not.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBaRz8Yl93k

 I have not shared much about my lake lately so let me share the good things.  We have had an unusual winter.  The ice fishermen were able to go out fishing only one day this winter and that was before Christmas.  Our temperatures are up and down and are causing such beautiful patterns on the lake. It still amazes me how water can take so many consistencies which actually draw art as you look out upon the lake. Ice does not reflect the blue of the sky but water does.  Most of the winter, we have had parts of the lake frozen while parts of isn’t.  Sometimes, the ice moves from one place to another and creates pathways of blue water among the ice which is smooth and yet has the texture of the wind freezing little mounds on it.

 The transient ducks have been here for a couple weeks (do you think they came early to console and delight me?)  The ring necked ducks came first, then the red breasted mergansers then the hooded mergansers.  One day I got up and there must have been 40 of them in small inlet of water that was cut in half by ice.  They were having a ball diving for the food but that inlet of ice was too small for them to bother flying over it so they would climb out and waddle to the other side and plop into the water so happily.  One day, the big geese, yes, they are back, had to share the water space with all these little dobblers. I noticed that the geese would get out and sit on the ice because these little hooded mergansers were popping in and out and seemingly got in the way. Yet, the small ducks were not frightened by the big boys.

 I hear the birds again, a sure sign of spring. Aren’t their songs so special in the springtime?  The very first migrant bird to come back is the turkey buzzard whose job it is to be the garbage man.  These birds clean up our earth from all the dead refuse and I thank them for doing that. Plus, they are soaring artists in the sky; they are so beautiful to watch. The brown headed Cowbird is back and my Golden Finches have started turning gold again but just the males. The males are the only ones who molt in the fall and then look almost female.

 Have you ever wondered about your DNA.  Meet the future humans.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G61HFtoEVik

 Our March Equinox is here and a different understanding of this time by Magenta Pixie.           Part 1 and Part 2

 This is a video that will lift your heart no matter what is happening in your world.  I laugh with you.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQ0bTJEi5_w&app=desktop

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Love and Light

Mary Grace

http://www.IAmMaryGrace.com
http://www.TheWoundedChalice.com

EXPLOSIVE ENERGY

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Beloved,

My mother was part Indian, Native American and every winter she would tell me that the last storm of winter, usually in March, was considered the poor man’s fertilizer.  The temperatures, moisture and the type of snow affect our soil and make it more conducive for planting. I know we are fed up with snow by now but when you know the real reason Mother Nature does this is to actually help our farmers and the land. it makes the snow more bearable. 

I know that tempers are short due to the energy and also the yearning for spring and warm weather here in the Northeast makes us chomp at the bit.  We seniors have been dealing with different challenging episodes at the Senior Center here since the new director, a much younger woman who does not understand being a senior, has been making so many changes that our heads are reeling.  I belong to a Pitch league, a card game, and we meet once a week at the Senior Center.  Last week we met and instead of our long tables there were three HUGE round tables.  We have six teams and the long tables allow for 2 teams at each table.  The large round ones allow 6 teams also but it is very difficult to hide your cards in the round and the dealer had to “sail” the cards across the ever so wide tables.  These tables may be good for eating with people but not for card playing.  Also, they are so huge that it is difficult to maneuver them to make room for exercising or any other activity that goes on in this one room where everyone can meet.  The long tables take less room and 3 of them can fit in half the room even with people seated at them. We card players made do but told the director that we need smaller tables. 

Mind you, the Senior Center used to have many folding long tables where we could add more people for lunch or anything else when more people showed up.  They used to be stored in a room like a large closet off the main room.  Well, she has turned that closet into a pantry taking our storage space away so now we only have 3 large round tables that do not fold for storage and are inadequate for everyone’s needs.  This week we showed up and our league leader was told we or she would have to set up 6 smaller folding tables and carry 24 chairs so there would be seats.  Then we were expected to undo all of that after the game. 

Let me be clear that all the neighboring town Senior Centers do all the set up and take down because that is the function of the Senior Center. There are much younger volunteers who do this or the director does it.  We have been very accommodating with this youngster because she is so unaware that seniors require different things than do others her age.

All of a sudden she shows up with 2 strong men and we had to move tables, the big ones and the ones we were playing on so they could bring up a big freezer from the first floor.  Out of my mouth pops: “Gee, thank you for all the help you got to take these tables and chairs down.”  Now, I know it sounded sarcastic and it probably was meant to be.  The biggest surprise I had was that I had no forewarning that those words were going to pop out of my mouth. As she passed me she said: “You got the tables didn’t you?”

Suddenly, I was so angry and I don’t usually get that angry.  I felt like I had a volcano in my gut and it was ready to explode. One good thing about getting older is that you let more go under the table without reacting. I was shaking I was so mad.  The pit of my stomach was as big and hard as a cannon ball.  All of us seniors were angry but I seemed to be the one that it hit the most. I came home and called my selectmen and he was gracious enough to come to my home and talk to me.  I then wrote a letter and asked the seniors to look at it, add something if they wanted and I will present it to the selectmen at the next meeting. 

I hope this is not boring you but I needed to set the background for what I finally discovered about myself during all of this.  I am quite familiar when my guidance takes over and tells people what they need to hear. My Spirit takes over which I allow because my human self would not know what is needed at that moment.  But this force of anger I was unprepared for and as I relive the event, I now realize that my Spirit took over in a way that I had been resisting my whole  life.  I do not like being combative and I much prefer to see the good in everyone.  As we all know, there is a Divine Purpose and Divine Plan afoot here on this planet.

Evidently I am part of a Divine Plan to make some changes that would benefit all the seniors as well as bringing up my fear of being assertive for me to look at and love.  I still do not like being at odds with others, I prefer talking and coming to a compromise.  I would not make a good Politician; I do not like the feeling in my soul, in my heart or in my gut. But, like it or not, I am at the forefront here and everyone likes my letter and are willing to sign it to make our Selectmen aware of what is happening at our Center.   Whew, I can’t wait until this is over so I can return to my normal state.  I couldn’t even say my morning prayers yesterday as my mind would not stop and I could not sink into my meditation or prayers.  Boy, am I experiencing a lot of new feelings and awareness that I had not felt before.

This video from Panache Desai seems so appropriate for what I just shared.  I keep playing it until my mind stops all of this discord and I can relax into a peaceful heart.

https://www.panachedesai.com/blog/how-to-dynamically-express-yourself-in-the-world

I am sharing these videos so if you ever find yourself in the situation I am in, it will help calm you and bring you back to yourself, your new self. Here is new video from Lee Harris.

http://www.leeharrisenergy.com/lheblog/embodychange

This youth took the time to listen to this homeless man and is an inspiration to his peers.  Check it out here.

What an unlikely pair.  God takes care of ALL of his creatures including us.

It is too late to join this march but I thought you might like to know what is happening now to these warriors.

http://nativenationsrise.org/

WHAT LEVEL ARE YOU ON?

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Beloved,

The energies this February feel different for me. I was giving credit to the winter we are having.  Yes, we have had cold but not much snow and when it does snow, it is not overwhelming.  I even realized yesterday, that I rarely wear boots because most things are plowed or shoveled.  The only time I have worn boots this winter was when I was outside shoveling. I have not had to use my snow brush this year either and I realized that with a garage protecting my car in the worst snow and I have not been snowed on when I was out and about.  This is a first for me as I have lived in the Northeast all my life.

I had a dream a couple of nights ago that left a deep impression on me. I was on an elevator and wanted to get off on the 5th floor to be somewhere at a special time.  The elevator would not cooperate.  It JUST would not open its doors on that level.  No matter what I did. My son Steve and his son Michael were on with me.  They were just watching me until I finally asked my son for help.  Steve pushed the button, the doors opened and he sped out-pushed the button for 5th level and hopped back in before the doors closed. It finally worked and I got off. Since I was late for my meeting, I started to run while pushing a wheelchair and then I suddenly realized that I should not be running so I sat in the wheelchair and it took off by itself going very fast.  I did not have a wheelchair when I was in the elevator at higher levels. Of course, we know dreams don’t always make sense while we are in them.    It took me a while to get my sense back after I woke up.

My take on it was the elevator was going up and down to different dimensions.  Why was I trying so hard to get off on the 5th floor when a wheelchair was waiting for me? I was not aware while I was on the elevator that I would need a wheelchair if I got off, but my higher self knew and was trying to keep me away from that dimension.  I choose to be on a higher dimension.  I release trying so hard to be on the 5th dimension. The 5th dimension was my goal for so long that I had not yet realized that I have surpassed that one and gone higher.  I am releasing working at awakening and just letting it happen naturally.  We do not have to WORK at it; we just need to relax into it. I am willing to be on a higher dimension and be free of duality and limited mobility.  I don’t usually remember my dreams but this one hit me like a ton of bricks.  Deep in my heart I know that miracles are here and we have access to them, all of us. We only need truth and trust.

It is an exciting time to be alive even if it is challenging.  There will be a lot of changes but the Universe is determined to raise our vibration and Earth’s. You are what you think and the hardest thing to change is your mind.  I am chuckling here because I realize that I get to that peaceful place and then suddenly I am not there anymore.  My intention is to be aware of the many shifts that I make during just one day and be attentive to staying longer in that “sweet” spot.

Of course, we know that there are no accidents, right?  It certainly was no accident that this talk by Esther Hicks showed up for me to hear, right?

Brenda Hoffman has a good article on our humanity.  I think you will enjoy it and perhaps it can make you aware before you have to have a dream like I had.  I could have called it a nightmare but it brought such a deep understanding to me, it actually was a gift.

This is the first time I have heard of Gerrit Gielen yet his writing is clear and brings a new meaning to unifying the masculine and feminine.

Kari Samuels has an energy forecast that you will feel in your heart.  I know WE ARE ALL ONE and many of us are feeling the same emotions.  You are not alone.

I wish to leave you with a song by a dad and his little girl that cannot help but bring a smile to your face. Know that this song is a greeting from me to you.

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Love and Light

Mary Grace

http://www.IAmMaryGrace.com
http://www.TheWoundedChalice.com