VULNERABLE AND SCARED

Beloved,

I celebrated my 75th birthday last Tuesday. My intent was to send you
an email to let you know so you could join with me in celebrating.
I woke up in the morning and laid in the bed and I wondered where all
the years went because there is so much I do not remember. It just
doesn’t seem possible that I have lived that many days, months, and
years. How easily we forget many of the details of just yesterday.
Is it easier to remember the more challenging scenarios of living
in human form? I am “playing” (not working) at remembering to live
in the moment. That is all we have because the past just melts away
and you wonder where it all went.

I “know” that I am not the same person, not the same personality,
my views have changed and I have learned soooo much about being human.
There is a saying: “Youth is wasted on the young”. By the time you
know what to do with your life, it is over. I would not want to go
back to being young, though. Not because of my physical looks but
because I have gained so much wisdom by living that I am not willing
to give that up. If I can take my wisdom with me, I would happily
be rejuvenated.

My day went so quickly, I started out going to my Svaroopa Yoga
class, then I took myself to my favorite place for coffee. Then off
to do shopping, both food and other. I came home to 7 messages on
my phone and by the time I got through them, it was time for my
oldest son and family to pick me up and go to my favorite restaurant.
Being Celiac, eating at restaurants who do not have a gluten free
menu is not a celebration. In fact, even restaurants with a gluten
free menu do not offer the food that I crave for. Like fish and chips,
Eggplant Parmesan, chicken fingers, pizza, hamburgers with a gluten
free bun and sauce that is gluten free. Most restaurants offer me
plain fish that is baked, some vegetables and a salad. I sure do
get sick of having such a plain meal.

Well, there is an Italian restaurant just 5 minutes down the road
that carries a full page of gluten free menus. It is a family run
restaurant: Diane’s Villa Nova in Holland, Ma whose cook has Celiac
and is very aware of contamination and just how much flour goes into
simple foods. I had Shepherd’s pie which is hamburg, corn and mashed
potatoes. It was mouth watering and sooo good. It has been years
since I have had it. I try to have something different each time I
go and I still have not tried all they have to offer yet. My son is ‘
a Celiac also and he got the huge hamburg filled with Mozzarella
cheese with the house sauce on it. WE shared a little of what we
were having with each other which is another gift as I usually can’t
share anything that someone else is having. They serve regular food
also so my granddaughter, grandson and daughter-in-law were able to
get food that they loved.

My other son was dog sitting a ways away so was unable to join us but
my kids and grand-kids all wished me a Happy Birthday by either phone,
email or in person. THAT is the only gift that I would ever want to
have, to be remembered by those I love. Money cannot buy love and
so it is the most precious and irreplaceable gift to receive.

We had another snow storm this past Sunday but I did not know about
it until I was half way to the 2013 Matters of the Heart Psychic
Fair being held about an hour and a quarter away. That event had
been postponed from the previous Sunday due to another snow storm
where we got 3 feet of snow. As I was one of the readers. a Mystic
reader, I did not know whether to turn back as I did not know what
lay ahead of me. It had not been snowing when I left home at 7A.M.
The driving was getting more difficult and the snow was freezing on
the windshield but my guidance told me there would be people who
needed my guidance to continue so I did.

This was also a challenge that I had been guided to face, to bring
my Chalice out to the general public. I have had it 18 years and
it is the Chalice that I was guided to buy and use on the cover of
my book, The Wounded Chalice. The transforming story about it is
in my book as it was pivotal in my writing it and following the
guidance of the Divine Feminine. I was still learning to listen
to my guidance and this was another exercise in me listening to
that little voice within me.

It had been on my altar for years as it took me 17 years to finish
the book after I was asked to write it. Are you one of the lucky ones
who listen immediately to your guidance? After my book was published
I retired it to its black box as it is silver with gilded gold and
I wanted to protect it from having to clean it so often. Well,
I took it out and cleaned it for its debut at this event. Sometimes
I need to look at why I am procrastinating. Is it because Spirit is
guiding me to the Divine Timing or am I trying to avoid doing what
is creating fear in me?

Maybe part of me wanted to turn back not because of the storm but
because of my fear of exposure. Exposing my Chalice will make me very
vulnerable. It is so sacred to me that I did not want anybody to
touch it, to tarnish it or to laugh at it. When you make yourself
vulnerable you never know what other people will say or do. Oh, me
of little faith. If I had the faith that I believe I have, why am
I so scared to be vulnerable?

Many people were affected by the Chalice, many were feeling chills
(which I call truth chills), many hearts were touched by it as it
represents their body also. The Chalice holds the blood of life
and so does your body, especially women. Your womb holds the Blood
of Life for your child and it holds the Blood of Your Life. Your
body is sacred as it holds the Divine.

I need to admit to cringing when the first person touched it. I had
placed it to the back of my table so the person would have to reach
over to touch it. Then another woman was rubbing it and another
one turned it over to see the printing underneath it. It was made
in 1913 and it has writing on it but I am not sure what language.
I just this minute realized (AHA moment)that my Chalice is celebrating
it’s 100th anniversary. Wow, what a celebration of the dedication
of this beautiful vessel to holding The Blood of Life . I was
celebrating my 75th while it was celebrating it’s 100th.

Because of the storm, the event was not well attended but those who
were meant to be there were there. This event gave me many
opportunities to face my fears and to help others face theirs. I am
grateful that my vulnerable and scared human had the courage to
listen to her inner guidance.

I hope to remember this video when I get scared of being vu
seen a dog up close before.
The dog is so gentle & keeps trying to engage the child.
What a beautiful animal!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JA8VJh0UJtg

Love and Light

Mary Grace
www.IAmMaryGrace.com
www.TheWoundedChalice.com
www.waleson5.com/marygrace.html

PO Box 403
Wales, MA 01081, USA
413-245-3977

WHAT IS YOUR GIFT TO EARTH?

Beloved,

We have had such unusual weather in my neck of the woods this week.
Last week it was down to below zero which made the Ice fisherman
very happy and this week it was up to 55 degrees and we even had
a lightning storm. I can’t call it a thunderstorm because there was
no thunder. I woke up at 1:45Am with lightning flashing in my window
although I had my blinds shut and I heard my generator going which
meant the power had gone off.

I am ever so grateful that I finally decided to have a standby
generator installed, it goes on automatically when the power goes off.
I have such a sense of relief and trust knowing that it is there
although it is not used very often. It is also a reminder to me
that I am trusting in something material where my true trust begins
in something that you can’t see but you can feel. Trust in God and
all that is provided for me to feel safe in this world.

The winds went up to 60 miles an hour that night. What power!!!
I had woken from a dream that was challenging me to the utmost.
Yet as I lay there being encased in the forceful sound of the wind
and the lightning coming in my window through closed blinds, I
realized that although the dream were two women threatening me at
my car, I suddenly pressed my foot on the gas and got away from them.
Sooo, I was empowered and I also trusted that my car would take me
away from that life threatening situation. Another realization was
that it was not men threatening me this time, it was women. Another
reminder that your challenges come in many forms but you are in
charge. You create your own reality and get stronger with each
exercise in knowing that.

I felt so safe in my own bed with the protection of my home around
me that I fell asleep knowing ALL IS WELL. I realize now that I am
no longer fearful about what MIGHT happen but I now feel the assurance
and trust that I am being cared for. What a switch. For so many
years I feared the future of what MIGHT happen rather than being
in the moment and knowing that there is only this moment which I
could destroy with fear of what MIGHT happen although most of what
I feared never occurred.

Do you have that level of trust yet? I pray that you do and if not,
that you come quickly to the realization that if you are safe in this
very moment, then you are safe. This is the only moment that exists
as you can not change the prior moment and the next one has not
been created yet. I am not suggesting that you be foolish like
walking in front of a car. God gave you a beautiful mind so that
can think for yourself and do all that is necessary to protect
yourself BUT then relax and trust in what you have created. Like
I had the generator installed after 9 months of researching all my
avenues to be safe in my home but then I needed to trust that it
would go on and I would never be without electricity again for 6 days
with all the problems that ensued from that episode.

My wish for you is that you adopt this method of trusting way sooner
than I have. You will spend more of your moments in bliss or at
least contentment. This is what this new year is all about. It is
a time for us to create a new world. Can you imagine just what a
fantastic world this would be if everyone trusted in themselves even
for a moment? Fear would go away and it is fear that encourages
people to steal because they are afraid they do not have enough.
It is fear that envelops nations who are afraid of compromising
lest they lose power. We spend more of our resources in protecting
ourselves with power that destroys others. Why not use LOVE instead.
Love of one another because we are all one species on one planet.
Mother Earth gives us all we need not only to survive but to live
in harmony and peace. There IS enough to go around. It is only
when we give that we make the space to receive.

You were born with the gift that you chose to share with others in
this lifetime. If all humans gave what they came to give, it
would be paradise. Each person would be valued for what they have
and others would share what their gift is. For so many years, I
begged God to get me out of here, to take me back to where I came
from because I did not belong. Finally in my 50’s, (I hope sooner
for you) God gave me a message that I had it backwards. Here I was
praying to go to heaven when I was here to bring Heaven to Earth.
What an awakening that was and it is true for each of us. IF EACH
of us shares our gift then Heaven will manifest here on Earth.

I am going to pass on a true story that a friend sent to me. It is
long and I don’t know how to create a link that would shorten my
newsletter but I feel the truth it shares of what just one person
can do is worth the read. It also speaks highly to judgement.This
is the level of trust that I aspire to:

Daniel’s Gloves

I sat, with two friends, in the picture window of a quaint restaurant
just off the corner of the town-square. The food and the company
were both especially good that day.

As we talked, my attention was drawn outside,across the street. There,
walking into town, was a man who appeared to be carrying all his
worldly goods on his back. He was carrying, a well-worn sign that
read, ‘I will work for food.’ My heart sank.

I brought him to the attention of my friends and noticed that others
around us had stopped eating to focus on him. Heads moved in a
mixture of sadness and disbelief.

We continued with our meal, but his image lingered in my mind. We
finished our meal and went our separate ways. I had errands to do
and quickly set out to accomplish them. I glanced toward the town
square, looking somewhat halfheartedly for the strange visitor.
I was fearful, knowing that seeing him again would call some
response. I drove through town and saw nothing of him. I made some
purchases at a store and got back in my car.

Deep within me, the Spirit of God kept speaking to me: ‘Don’t go
back to the office until you’ve at least driven once more around
the square.’

Then with some hesitancy, I headed back into town. As I turned the
square’s third corner, I saw him. He was standing on the steps of
the church, going through his sack.

I stopped and looked; feeling both compelled to speak to him, yet
wanting to drive on. The empty parking space on the corner seemed
to be a sign from God: an invitation to park. I pulled in, got out
and approached the town’s newest visitor.

‘Looking for the pastor?’ I asked.

‘Not really,’ he replied, ‘just resting.’

‘Have you eaten today?’

‘Oh, I ate something early this morning.’

‘Would you like to have lunch with me?’

‘Do you have some work I could do for you?’

‘No work,’ I replied ‘I commute here to work from the city, but I
would like to take you to lunch.’

‘Sure,’ he replied with a smile.

As he began to gather his things, I asked some surface questions.

Where you headed?’ St. Louis ‘

Where you from?’ Oh, all over; mostly Florida ..’

‘How long you been walking?’ ‘Fourteen years,’ came the reply.

I knew I had met someone unusual. We sat across from each other in
the same restaurant I had left earlier. His face was weathered
slightly beyond his 38 years. His eyes were dark yet clear, and he
spoke with an eloquence and articulation that was startling He
removed his jacket to reveal a ragged T-shirt that said,
‘Jesus is The Never Ending Story.’

Then Daniel’s story began to unfold. He had seen rough times early
in life. He’d made some wrong choices and reaped the consequences..
Fourteen years earlier, while backpacking across the country, he had
stopped on the beach in Daytona… He tried to hire on with some men
who were putting up a large tent and some equipment. A concert,
he thought.

He was hired, but the tent would not house a concert but revival
services, and in those services he saw life more clearly. He gave
his life over to God

‘Nothing’s been the same since,’ he said, ‘I felt the Lord telling
me to keep walking, and so I did, some 14 years now.’

‘Ever think of stopping?’ I asked.

‘Oh, once in a while, when it seems to get the best of me But God has
given me this calling. I give out Bibles That’s what’s in my sack.
I work to buy food and Bibles, and I give them out when His Spirit
leads.’

I sat amazed. My homeless friend was not homeless. He was on a
mission and lived this way by choice. The question burned inside
for a moment and then I asked: ‘What’s it like?’

‘What?’

‘To walk into a town carrying all your things on your back and to
show your sign?’

‘Oh, it was humiliating at first. People would stare and make comments.
Once someone tossed a piece of half-eaten bread and made a gesture
that certainly didn’t make me feel welcome. But then it became
humbling to realize that God was using me to touch lives and change
people’s concepts of other folks like me.’

My concept was changing, too. We finished our dessert and gathered
his things. Just outside the door, he paused He turned to me and
said, ‘Come Ye blessed of my Father and inherit the kingdom I’ve
prepared for you. For when I was hungry you gave me food, when I
was thirsty you gave me drink, a stranger and you took me in.’

I felt as if we were on holy ground. ‘Could you use another Bible?’
I asked.

He said he preferred a certain translation. It traveled well and
was not too heavy. It was also his personal favorite.. ‘I’ve read
through it 14 times,’ he said.
‘I’m not sure we’ve got one of those, but let’s stop by our church
and see if I am able to find my new friend a Bible that would do
well, and he seemed very grateful.

‘Where are you headed from here?’ I asked.

‘Well, I found this little map on the back of this amusement park
coupon.’

‘Are you hoping to hire on there for a while?’

‘No, I just figure I should go there. I figure someone under that
star right there needs a Bible, so that’s where I’m going next.’

He smiled, and the warmth of his spirit radiated the sincerity of his
mission. I drove him back to the town-square where we’d met two hours
earlier, and as we drove, it started raining. We parked and unloaded
his things.

‘Would you sign my autograph book?’ he asked… ‘I like to keep
messages from folks I meet.’

I wrote in his little book that his commitment to his calling had
touched my life. I encouraged him to stay strong. And I left him
with a verse of scripture from Jeremiah, ‘I know the plans I have
for you, declared the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm
you; Plans to give you a future and a hope.’

‘Thanks, man,’ he said. ‘I know we just met and we’re really just
strangers, but I love you.’

‘I know,’ I said, ‘I love you, too.’ ‘The Lord is good!’

‘Yes, He is. How long has it been since someone hugged you?’ I
asked.

‘A long time,’ he replied

And so on the busy street corner in the drizzling rain, my new
friend and I embraced, and I felt deep inside that I had been
changed.. He put his things on his back, smiled his winning smile
and said, ‘See you in the New Jerusalem.’

‘I’ll be there!’ was my reply.

He began his journey again. He headed away with his sign dangling
from his bedroll and pack of Bibles. He stopped, turned and said,
‘When you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray
for me?’

‘You bet,’ I shouted back, ‘God bless.’

That was the last I saw of him.

Late that evening as I left my office, the wind blew strong. The
cold front had settled hard upon the town. I bundled up and hurried
to my car. As I sat back and reached for the emergency brake, I saw
them… a pair of well-worn brown work gloves neatly laid over the
length of the handle. I picked them up and thought of my friend and
wondered if his hands would stay warm that night without them.

Then I remembered his words: ‘If you see something that makes you
think of me, will you pray for me?’

Today his gloves lie on my desk in my office.. They help me to see
the world and its people in a new way, and they help me remember
those two hours with my unique friend and to pray for his ministry.
‘See you in the New Jerusalem,’ he said. Yes, Daniel, I know I will…

Preparing this for you brings back all the feelings I had when I
first read this. Feelings of trust and not preaching by words but
by example. I wonder if his “New Jerusalem” is the new world that
is being birthed in 2013. I sincerely hope so. Will you help me
bring the “NEW JERUSALEM to this planet? We all can do it, one
person and one gift at a time.

Love and Light

Mary Grace
www.IAmMaryGrace.com
www.TheWoundedChalice.com
http://www.waleson5.com/marygrace.html

PO Box 403
Wales, MA 01081, USA
413-245-3977

WANT A CLEAR CONNECTION TO THE DIVINE?

Beloved,

Today is beginning totally different than most of my mornings.
Yesterday I had some difficulty with getting clear reception on
both of my phones. One was so garbled that I had to call back on
a different phone and the next call, I had to stand in a certain
spot to have reception and it was my wall phone????

So, what do you do when you have phone problems? You call the
phone company! I set up a time for this morning for them to
come out. Lo and behold, I am listening to Panache Desai (who I
highly recommend, by the way) on Facebook Livestream. I have never
been on Livestream before so I am trying to figure out what to do
and per instructions, I set up an account with Livestream???

I do not know much about Facebook and my roommate at the Gathering
in Florida from Sweden, Sonja has been kind enough to help me find
out how to navigate this site. I was late in joining the event
but finally got in. I settled down and was immersed when all of a
sudden a truck from the phone company showed up. Darn, I wanted to
listen to Panache. Suddenly, my computer went dead. I went
outside and the telephone man was playing with the phone connections
and of course he needed to shut down my phone service which also
shut down my computer Wi-Fi service.

Amazingly, I was not upset. I was not even frustrated even though
I knew I would have to try to figure out how I got in to Livestream
in the first place and then try to duplicate it. The telephone man
finished playing outside and said he thought the problem was in
one of the high wires. He did not know if they would have him
fix it then or come back tomorrow.

Soooo, I went back inside to try to get connected back up with Panache
Desai. I got back in and was engrossed again when the phone rang.
It was the telephone man saying he would be back in the morning
to try to solve the problem. By now, I had missed quite a bit of
what Panache was talking about but again I was not bothered????

Usually, I get so frustrated when something interrupts a task that I
tried sooo hard to accomplish and then keeps interrupting my progress.
ESPECIALLY when it has anything to do with technology. I did not
make resolutions this year but I did make a promise to myself that
I would climb over my fear and learn more about Facebook and Skype
and perhaps even my two MP3’s that I have had for two years and still
cannot figure out how to use. I kept thinking that All is in Divine
Order and even if I cannot SEE the reason behind all of this, there
HAS to be one.

I have believed this for years but it was so simple to do this time.
The New Year of birthing from the heart instead of the mind is here.
This morning he showed up bright and early and proceeded to fix the
problem. Guess what it was? An old hornet’s nest on the side of
my house which was wet and was on top of a vital wire connection.

Is this what happens to you when you try to connect to the Divine?
Do you need to dial up the Divine again or do you need to stay
stuck in one spot in order to have a clear connection? Are you
limiting yourself to one spot, job, location, etc. because you don’t
think there is another solution? How about removing your fear (hornet’s
nest) from your mind and feeling the LOVE in your heart which holds
all the answers you are seeking for.

An added plus is that the telephone man and I had a very nice
conversation this morning and he is an enlightened being with two
beautiful daughters, 4 and 6 years old. He and they are such a
light to me, a reminder that angels come in many disguises and there
are soooo many on our planet that we don’t even know are there.

Remember the connection you have to the Divine and it only takes
knocking down a old, dead hornets nest of fear to have a complete
clear connection.

I thought you might like a visual of how to make a connection with
something new. Click on this link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JA8VJh0UJtg

And….I received this Heavenletter today and it speaks volumes.

http://www.heavenletters.org/love-letters-of-spiritual-upliftment-from-god.html

Love and Light

Mary Grace

www.IAmMaryGrace.com
www.TheWoundedChalice.com
http://www.waleson5.com/marygrace.html

PO Box 403
Wales, MA 01081, USA
413-245-3977