Beloved,
I celebrated my 75th birthday last Tuesday. My intent was to send you
an email to let you know so you could join with me in celebrating.
I woke up in the morning and laid in the bed and I wondered where all
the years went because there is so much I do not remember. It just
doesn’t seem possible that I have lived that many days, months, and
years. How easily we forget many of the details of just yesterday.
Is it easier to remember the more challenging scenarios of living
in human form? I am “playing” (not working) at remembering to live
in the moment. That is all we have because the past just melts away
and you wonder where it all went.
I “know” that I am not the same person, not the same personality,
my views have changed and I have learned soooo much about being human.
There is a saying: “Youth is wasted on the young”. By the time you
know what to do with your life, it is over. I would not want to go
back to being young, though. Not because of my physical looks but
because I have gained so much wisdom by living that I am not willing
to give that up. If I can take my wisdom with me, I would happily
be rejuvenated.
My day went so quickly, I started out going to my Svaroopa Yoga
class, then I took myself to my favorite place for coffee. Then off
to do shopping, both food and other. I came home to 7 messages on
my phone and by the time I got through them, it was time for my
oldest son and family to pick me up and go to my favorite restaurant.
Being Celiac, eating at restaurants who do not have a gluten free
menu is not a celebration. In fact, even restaurants with a gluten
free menu do not offer the food that I crave for. Like fish and chips,
Eggplant Parmesan, chicken fingers, pizza, hamburgers with a gluten
free bun and sauce that is gluten free. Most restaurants offer me
plain fish that is baked, some vegetables and a salad. I sure do
get sick of having such a plain meal.
Well, there is an Italian restaurant just 5 minutes down the road
that carries a full page of gluten free menus. It is a family run
restaurant: Diane’s Villa Nova in Holland, Ma whose cook has Celiac
and is very aware of contamination and just how much flour goes into
simple foods. I had Shepherd’s pie which is hamburg, corn and mashed
potatoes. It was mouth watering and sooo good. It has been years
since I have had it. I try to have something different each time I
go and I still have not tried all they have to offer yet. My son is ‘
a Celiac also and he got the huge hamburg filled with Mozzarella
cheese with the house sauce on it. WE shared a little of what we
were having with each other which is another gift as I usually can’t
share anything that someone else is having. They serve regular food
also so my granddaughter, grandson and daughter-in-law were able to
get food that they loved.
My other son was dog sitting a ways away so was unable to join us but
my kids and grand-kids all wished me a Happy Birthday by either phone,
email or in person. THAT is the only gift that I would ever want to
have, to be remembered by those I love. Money cannot buy love and
so it is the most precious and irreplaceable gift to receive.
We had another snow storm this past Sunday but I did not know about
it until I was half way to the 2013 Matters of the Heart Psychic
Fair being held about an hour and a quarter away. That event had
been postponed from the previous Sunday due to another snow storm
where we got 3 feet of snow. As I was one of the readers. a Mystic
reader, I did not know whether to turn back as I did not know what
lay ahead of me. It had not been snowing when I left home at 7A.M.
The driving was getting more difficult and the snow was freezing on
the windshield but my guidance told me there would be people who
needed my guidance to continue so I did.
This was also a challenge that I had been guided to face, to bring
my Chalice out to the general public. I have had it 18 years and
it is the Chalice that I was guided to buy and use on the cover of
my book, The Wounded Chalice. The transforming story about it is
in my book as it was pivotal in my writing it and following the
guidance of the Divine Feminine. I was still learning to listen
to my guidance and this was another exercise in me listening to
that little voice within me.
It had been on my altar for years as it took me 17 years to finish
the book after I was asked to write it. Are you one of the lucky ones
who listen immediately to your guidance? After my book was published
I retired it to its black box as it is silver with gilded gold and
I wanted to protect it from having to clean it so often. Well,
I took it out and cleaned it for its debut at this event. Sometimes
I need to look at why I am procrastinating. Is it because Spirit is
guiding me to the Divine Timing or am I trying to avoid doing what
is creating fear in me?
Maybe part of me wanted to turn back not because of the storm but
because of my fear of exposure. Exposing my Chalice will make me very
vulnerable. It is so sacred to me that I did not want anybody to
touch it, to tarnish it or to laugh at it. When you make yourself
vulnerable you never know what other people will say or do. Oh, me
of little faith. If I had the faith that I believe I have, why am
I so scared to be vulnerable?
Many people were affected by the Chalice, many were feeling chills
(which I call truth chills), many hearts were touched by it as it
represents their body also. The Chalice holds the blood of life
and so does your body, especially women. Your womb holds the Blood
of Life for your child and it holds the Blood of Your Life. Your
body is sacred as it holds the Divine.
I need to admit to cringing when the first person touched it. I had
placed it to the back of my table so the person would have to reach
over to touch it. Then another woman was rubbing it and another
one turned it over to see the printing underneath it. It was made
in 1913 and it has writing on it but I am not sure what language.
I just this minute realized (AHA moment)that my Chalice is celebrating
it’s 100th anniversary. Wow, what a celebration of the dedication
of this beautiful vessel to holding The Blood of Life . I was
celebrating my 75th while it was celebrating it’s 100th.
Because of the storm, the event was not well attended but those who
were meant to be there were there. This event gave me many
opportunities to face my fears and to help others face theirs. I am
grateful that my vulnerable and scared human had the courage to
listen to her inner guidance.
I hope to remember this video when I get scared of being vu
seen a dog up close before.
The dog is so gentle & keeps trying to engage the child.
What a beautiful animal!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JA8VJh0UJtg
Love and Light
Mary Grace
www.IAmMaryGrace.com
www.TheWoundedChalice.com
www.waleson5.com/marygrace.html
PO Box 403
Wales, MA 01081, USA
413-245-3977