Beloved.
This is not the newsletter I was hoping to send you this morning. I went to see the doctor about stem cell therapy for my knee yesterday and got quite the surprise I was not expecting. I only got to see a nurse practitioner and not the doctor that I was expecting to see. I had been told by the doctor over the phone that there would be consultation with him and his team and we would decide the best avenue for me to take as there are three options to choose from as well as three prices. The nurse practitioner focused on my Multiple Chemical Sensitivities first and after much confusion decided that I was not a good candidate because they use Hyaluronic Acid with the PRP or stem cell in order to inject it into your body. She was not certain of the effect it would have although Hyaluronic Acid is already in our body but in much smaller amounts. Had I been able to see the doctor, I am sure I would have received much more information or at least another path to pursue to reach my goal of walking pain free.
To say I was devastated is to say the least. I tend to withdraw when confronted or shocked and my mind does not give me good directions until I have time to ponder it. I felt sorrow yesterday and did my crying. It is OK to feel sorrow and allow yourself to feel it. Today, I feel anger and can focus more clearly on what happened. No matter why you are feeling sorrow or sadness, there is a progression of different emotions before you can clear it out of your psyche. I sent an email to the doctor this morning about my experience, just in case he was not aware of it and the fact that I did not travel two and half hours one way to get to speak to a nurse practitioner even if she was Pasant. Yesterday, I was feeling very vulnerable and blaming myself, my body and my sensitivities. In other words, I was feeling sorry for myself. I am not any happier or serene today but I know in my heart that there IS a reason for this and I am not sure what it is. When I find out, I will clue you in.
Feeling grief and sorrow is universal right now.
https://www.leeharrisenergy.com/p/april-2018-energy-update
If only we had been allowed to cry and let it out like this little boy did, there would be a lot less emotional and physical pain in the world today. This is what I wanted to do yesterday. When I look at this, I melt in love because we all know what it feels like to be this boy. He had an angel and so do all of us, we just forget that we get to be held like that when the world is too much for us.
Why did I create this? This is a period of time that all secrets will be revealed. All that you or I have hidden from ourselves is being exposed so we can face it, deal with it and let it go so we can grow. The whole world is going through this and you have probably noticed that no one’s secret is safe, all will be exposed. I have felt for a long time that my knee is holding some trauma, drama or pain that I was not ready to face. I just wish I could discover what it is so I can heal it. One thing I do know is that blaming others will not help. They volunteered to be part of our drama so we can discover what is hidden and we can heal ourselves. Our bodies were created to selfheal, what happens when you cut yourself?
What can LOVE create? We are at our highest creativity level when we are creating for someone we love. I think this is great, it’s supposed to be good in snow. Well, it’s snowing outside right now so maybe it’s time I start thinking about another mode of transportation. Want to race?
Happy Passover! Jesus and Amma, Love at its strongest.
https://spiritlibrary.com/ann-albers/jesus-amma-resurrecting-love
A look into the not so distant future. I cannot wrap my mind around it but I know you can. Isn’t this a great invention? I will have to learn another technical invention but I will be happy about the ease and cost of this usage.
I am still working through my disappointment but this little guy has the right idea. Just ask someone to help you? SMILE
Love and Light
Mary Grace
https://thewoundedchalice.com