Beloved,
Have you ever had a dream where you feel anxious when you wake up?
That is the way I started this morning. I woke up at 6AM and was
cold. How many of you just suffer with the cold temperature rather
than getting up and getting another blanket? My thermostats are set
to reduce the temperature 5 degrees when it is dark so the heat does
not come on until the daylight appears or the temperature goes below
60 degrees. Since the night temperature is not as cold as usual, it
takes much longer for the thermostat to kick in.
Sooo, I just snuggled down deeper and curled up to stay warm until
I felt ready to get up. That was when I had the dream and usually
going back to sleep has me dream whatever has been on my mind. I
volunteered to be a participant in a research study on women’s
health, nutrition and physical activity. It is being done by UMass
Medical School and they were looking for women 65 years of age and
older. I qualified and felt this was one way to help my fellow
sisters and it is easy.
I need to record everything I put in my mouth on a daily basis and
they will call me three times during the test week to verify what
I ingest. Let me be truthful, I need to record everything because
I would forget what I had yesterday or this morning. It is my
choice to do it this way so when they call, I can give them an
accurate report. It is not a prerequisite. I also wear a belt that
has two objects on it, one is a GPS so they can record where I am.
Not that I am being followed but so that when I mark down what
activity I am involved in, they can have the corresponding location.
I do not wear it to bed. I put it on the charger when I remove it
and then it is powered for the next day.
It is amazing how I was not “aware” of how much water I drink in one
day. I thought it was 6 to 8 glasses but in reality it is about
5 glasses. This is only my third day so I will probably discover that
as I run around on errands, I will drink more because I always carry
a glass bottle of my delicious well water in the car. I always have
the same breakfast which I was told is extremely common for people.
I kind of chuckle as I go through my day to discover that I would
not do this for myself but in doing this to help others, I am
learning a lot more about myself. Has that ever happened to you?
Sooo, back to my dream. I dreamt that I was in a warehouse type of
building with about 6 other people. It was our job to send the
package? back at the end of our shift and pack up our computers
to go home. I went to the bathroom and was having a problem seeing
clearly so it took me much longer than usual. As I came out, the
guard told me that I was late and the bus was getting ready to leave.
I left the package there and tried to get my computer in its case.
Not seeing very well, I was having a lot of trouble doing it. All
of a sudden guard told me the bus was leaving and I would have to run
to catch up. Otherwise, I had no way of getting home.
I woke up at 8:30 this morning, much later than usual and Friday is
my busiest day of the week. My heart was beating fast and I did not
feel rested and was feeling a lot of anxiety. What occurs in your
dream is what your body is experiencing in reality.
I do not usually have nightmares but occasionally have these anxiety
dreams and it usually involves me being left all alone somewhere and
not knowing how to get back home. I always related it to my being
left in an unknown city by my schoolmates and chaperones which also
included my dad. I had to go to the bathroom and the only one was
across the street but when I came out, no one I knew was there. I
was so confused, I didn’t know what to do. But…I remembered that
I was told if this ever happened that I was to stay where I was
because someone would know where I was last seen. It took a couple
of hours for someone to find me because they were looking across
the street which was a 6 lane road with barriers down the middle.
It was where everyone had gotten on the bus and not at the last
place I had gone. My dad was furious with me and the rest of that
trip to NH was not pleasant.
Isn’t it amazing that my subconscious will not let go of this
although it happened 65 years ago. Please, please be loving and
patient with your child or anyone who has gone through a trauma
because if it is not resolved, it will last a lifetime. I must be
feeling anxious about doing this research although I do not “feel”
that I am. This dream is always an indication to me that I am
concerned about “something”. See what a “test” does to my mind. I am
trying to be very accurate with my reporting. I remember not being
able to pass the typing and shorthand tests because once I knew
it was a test, my mind would go blank when they said go. Boy,
I haven’t thought about that in years. Our minds are incredible
aren’t they. What is buried in your subconscious? Love whatever
it is and forgive anyone involved because if you or the other person
knew how to do better, you would have and so would they. My dad had
been terrified and could not let it go so he shouted at me and was
upset for the whole trip. Although the nuns were loving and
understanding, the scolding from Dad has been with me my whole life.
What do you dream about? What are you anxious about? If you
pay attention to your dreams, it will lead you to discovering
your subconscious concerns or joy. Do we lead double lives? We
sure do, one during the day and one during sleep time. I record
the dreams I remember and it has been exactly one month since
my last remembered dream. I am usually peaceful when I wake and this
dream made me appreciate and be thankful for ALL the mornings I
wake up in peace.
Speaking about the nuns, have you heard of St Malachy and his
predictions for our Popes? Click on this link and find out.
Speaking about different perspectives, a friend send me this link.
Wonderful video – the 40th anniversary of the famous ‘Blue Marble’
photograph taken of Earth from space, Planetary Collective presents
a short film documenting astronauts’ life-changing stories of seeing
the Earth from the outside – a perspective-altering experience often
described as the Overview Effect. Stunning!
Love and Light
Mary Grace
www.IAmMaryGrace.com
www.TheWoundedChalice.com
http:www.waleson5.com/marygrace.html
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Wales, MA 01081, USA
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